I feel like I'm drowning. I try to get over it, I try to forget the meanings. But I can't hide from it. It's a waking nightmare that forms my entire life. I want to step outside my body and anaylze why I feel the way I do, but I can't. I could help anyone but I could never help myself. It's like watching this horrible car wreck over and over again, knowing that I'm the one who dies in the end. And that everyone else makes it out fine. I sit and watch from the side lines while happy families hold thier loved ones who survived, ignoring the dead boy. Ignoring me.

It's like I'm drowning when I'm no where near water.